Friday Feels with REAL Feelings

Happy Cinco De Mayo friends!! I’m currently writing this from Starbucks at 10:20pm on Thursday (the night before this went up!). I’ve tried to write a blog post all week and even blocked out two hours to knock some out yesterday, and I just couldn’t do it. I’ll stare at my laptop for an hour and not write a single thing. To be honest, I just really feel like rambling right now so I’m sorry if this is not what you came to AMS for today… but if you’re wondering why I haven’t put up my usual MWF posts each week this is why.

I’ve stuck to my MWF schedule of postings the last 6 months with the occasional week of just two posts. Well the last month I’ve had not one, not two, but FOURTEEN posts shot but they haven’t made my blog yet because I haven’t been inspired to write them. It’s something I’m struggling with right now and have a feeling I will the next 3-4 months.

Pretty much, this blog is my inspiration. It’s my creative outlet and something I’m extremely proud of. But this blog is so much more than what I’m wearing or my favorite Spring trends. It’s my life. I started it to share my experiences and advice. But how do I share that life and advice when it is so ridiculously boring right now?

I’ve shared my daily routine before on here, but it really is just work (I started a part-time job), and school. I’m honestly drowning in school. This is the first semester I’ve actually cared about grades (yes… school has never been a priority but for some reason it is now lol)  in forever. When I’m not on campus for 6 hours, I’m at my desk or at Starbucks doing homework. That’s my life at the moment. I’m not traveling, I’m not going out at night, I’m not doing anything fun for myself. I’m stuck in this time of my life where all I do and all I want to do is sleep, watch Netflix/relax, and do school work. And trust me, you can’t feel inspired to write a post when that’s all you have done the last 4 months of your life. So, I’m a little stuck right now.

I have no plans to travel this summer, and I’ll be working like crazy to save for graduation. It’s honestly really sad because I want the inspiration to write posts. But I can’t get it right now. I’ve accepted that this is my stage of life at the moment. I’d love to be out day drinking, hanging by the pool. and traveling all the time like I’m used to. But in reality, I graduate in one year. I have one year to finish my degree, make the grades, add to my resume, and look for a job. That’s what’s important right now and it’s just one more year of my life.

I’m so thankful that I have all of y’all reading my blog and  I’ve worked so hard to get my blog where it is over the last year and a half. But unfortunately my life is NOT fun and games right now. And I personally feel like I know y’all don’t want to be reading about how I went to bed at 8pm the other night because I was so tired from all of the school work I’ve been doing. I’ve run myself completely dry (whatever that means??) because I’m the type of person that will take on as much as I can until I collapse. literally. And I’m pretty much at that point right now.

I am SO sorry for this rant of a post but I know a lot of y’all really do care about what’s going on in life and I so appreciate that. I’m so thankful for this blog and I’m not stopping it anytime soon but just wanted to explain where I’ve been and what’s going on with AMS right now.

I seriously have 14 posts of photos to go up. They’ll eventually go up, but I like them to have a purpose. And until I get the inspiration for that purpose, they’re just going to sit on my desktop. I hope y’all understand and thank you SO much for reading and being so incredibly kind. I pray that venting about this just opens my mind up for more ideas and content. Here’s to a lovely Friday, celebrating Cinco De Mayo, and a weekend of living life!! XO.

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